Chapter 130: Expostulation with Oneself

அவர்நெஞ்சு அவர்க்காதல் கண்டும் எவன்நெஞ்சே
நீஎமக்கு ஆகா தது.

Avarnenju Avarkkaadhal Kantum Evannenje
Neeemakku Aakaa Thadhu

You see, his heart is his alone; Why not my heart be all my own?

Meaning: O my soul! although you have seen how his soul stands by him, how is it you do not stand by me?

உறாஅ தவர்க்கண்ட கண்ணும் அவரைச்
செறாஅரெனச் சேறியென் நெஞ்சு.

Uraaa Thavarkkanta Kannum Avaraich
Cheraaarenach Cheriyen Nenju

O heart, you see how he slights me Yet you clasp him as if friendly

Meaning: O my soul! although you have known him who does not love me, still do you go to him, saying "he will not be displeased."

கெட்டார்க்கு நட்டார்இல் என்பதோ நெஞ்சேநீ
பெட்டாங்கு அவர்பின் செலல்.

Kettaarkku Nattaaril Enpadho Nenjenee
Pettaangu Avarpin Selal

You follow him at will Is it \"The fallen have no friends\" my heart?

Meaning: O my soul! do you follow him at pleasure under the belief that the ruined have no friends?

இனிஅன்ன நின்னொடு சூழ்வார்யார் நெஞ்சே
துனிசெய்து துவ்வாய்காண் மற்று.

Inianna Ninnotu Soozhvaaryaar Nenje
Thuniseydhu Thuvvaaikaan Matru

You won't sulk first and then submit Who will then consult you, my heart?

Meaning: O my soul! you would not first seem sulky and then enjoy (him); who then would in future consult you about such things?

பெறாஅமை அஞ்சும் பெறின்பிரிவு அஞ்சும்
அறாஅ இடும்பைத்தென் நெஞ்சு.

Peraaamai Anjum Perinpirivu Anjum
Araaa Itumpaiththen Nenju

Frets to gain and fears loss in gain O my heart suffers ceaseless pain

Meaning: My soul fears when it is without him; it also fears when it is with him; it is subject to incessant sorrow

தனியே இருந்து நினைத்தக்கால் என்னைத்
தினிய இருந்ததென் நெஞ்சு.

Thaniye Irundhu Ninaiththakkaal Ennaith
Thiniya Irundhadhen Nenju

My itching mind eats me anon As I muse on him all alone

Meaning: My mind has been (here) in order to eat me up (as it were) whenever I think of him in my solitude

நாணும் மறந்தேன் அவர்மறக் கல்லாஎன்
மாணா மடநெஞ்சிற் பட்டு.

Naanum Marandhen Avarmarak Kallaaen
Maanaa Matanenjir Pattu

I forget shame but not his thought In mean foolish mind I'm caught

Meaning: I have even forgotten my modesty, having been caught in my foolish mind which is not dignified enough to forget him

எள்ளின் இளிவாம்என்று எண்ணி அவர்திறம்
உள்ளும் உயிர்க்காதல் நெஞ்சு.

Ellin Ilivaamendru Enni Avardhiram
Ullum Uyirkkaadhal Nenju

My heart living in love of him Hails his glory ignoring blame

Meaning: My soul which clings to life thinks only of his (own) gain in the belief that it would be disgraceful for it to despise him

துன்பத்திற்கு யாரே துணையாவார் தாமுடைய
நெஞ்சந் துணையல் வழி.

Thunpaththirku Yaare Thunaiyaavaar Thaamutaiya
Nenjan Thunaiyal Vazhi

Who support a man in grief If lover's heart denies relief?

Meaning: Who would help me out of one's distress, when one's own soul refuses help to one?

தஞ்சம் தமரல்லர் ஏதிலார் தாமுடைய
நெஞ்சம் தமரல் வழி.

Thanjam Thamarallar Edhilaar Thaamutaiya
Nenjam Thamaral Vazhi

Why wonder if strangers disown When one's own heart is not his own?

Meaning: It is hardly possible for strangers to behave like relations, when one's own soul acts like a stranger